THE MINISTRY OF ANGELS

So this week for Relief Society our lesson was going to be on the talk "The Ministry of Angels" given by Elder Jeffrey R. Holland in the Nov. conference of last year. I have read this talk before but I was reading it to prepare for our class in Relief Society today. In the talk a few points that stuck out to me is where he says, ..." but seen or unseen they are always near. Occasionally the angelic purpose is to warn. But most often it is to comfort, to provide some form of merciful attention, guidance in difficult times. I ask everyone within the sound of my voice to take heart, be filled with faith, and remember the Lord has said He "would fight our battles, our childrens battles", and the battles of our children's children. And what do we do to merit such a defense? We are to "search diligently, pray always, and be believing. Then all things shall work together for our good, if we walk uprightly and remember the covenant wherewith we have covenanted." The latter days are not a time to fear and tremble. They are a time to be believing and remember our covenants. Also God never leaves us alone, never leaves us unaided in the challenges we face. While pondering these things I was looking at my wall covered in pictures of Wes and my life for the past 29 years. A friend once told me that at some point Im going to have to take down my pictures of Wes and I was very offended and I cried for a long time. But as I was reading this talk and thinking I got up and started to take down the pictures I have of Wes and even pictures of the both of us. This was somewhat painful for me. I felt like I was betraying him by taking these pictures down. I cried and cried but eventually what brought me peace was knowing that Wes is one of my angels and he is with me all the time. I realized that I didnt need a shrine dedicated to him in my room because he is always in my heart. I put all the clothes of his that I have, his pictures, letters he wrote me in a box. I couldnt believe that I actually did it. I have 2 framed pictures of him on my desk. One of him by himself and one of us together. I know that Heavenly Father loves me and is truly mindful of my trials and my pain but also my wishes. I find peace in knowing Wes is busy doing the Lords work. I know Wes would want me to move forward with my life and he wants me to be happy. Doing this was truly a big step for me. It was very emotional for me but I got thru it. I truly love the gospel and the Lord and my Savior Jesus Christ. I pray that I will fulfill my divine purpose and return to Him one day.